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  • Oct. 11th, 2008 at 7:37 PM
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I think today was just meant to be an off day for me.  Despite my best intentions, all I got accomplished beyond eating, doing my stretching routine, showering and getting dressed was this: I ran one brief errand and took a couple of boxes of recycling out to the car, replacing them with empty boxes that will soon (hopefully) hold the fruits of my decluttering labors. That's IT.  With only two days in a week that aren't mostly taken up by work, I'm aggravated that I pretty much wasted this one.  :::shrugs:::  I guess this just means that I'll have to be extra diligent tomorrow.

Something that bugs me: I feel like my journal is terribly boring.  Due to my health issues I really don't have much life outside of work and baseball (and doG knows I'm no sportswriter, so writing scintillating game recaps isn't my forte).  Once upon a time, though, I DID have a very active social life, went places, did interesting things, had a lot of friends, and I have many stories to tell of my golden era.  I even have a pile of old handwritten journals to draw from if I want to jog my memory about what it was like.  So I'm wondering something: Would anyone on my f-list like to hear about when I was young, healthy, carefree, and had excitement and joy in my life?  Writing about these things could be seen as living in the past, I realize this, but it would certainly spice up my journal a bit.  I'm just curious to know what folks think of that idea.

On the subject of back in the day, I spent some time this afternoon reading the abandoned LJ of the daughter of one of my favorite (male) high school classmates. He's someone I've mentioned here before, several months ago. Chris was an amazing guy, very personable and talented. Last time I saw him was in 1978, and I accidentally found the daughter last year while Googling Chris to see if I could figure out why he had aged so badly (I had found a professional picture in my Web travels). I had found her LJ at the time and had gleaned some telling information out of it, but what I realized today was that back then, I didn't know how to navigate within journals so hadn't read the whole thing. So today, I read all of it. Let's put it this way, I know that people change a lot between 18 and their 40s, but it saddened me to see what a total asshole Chris turned out to be.  Part of the daughter's ranting could certainly be attributed to teenage angst, but on the other hand, her dad sounds like a major piece of work...emotionally and physically abusive. He was such a sweet guy in school. Seeing how he turned out was pretty sad, not to mention unsettling.

Game is about to start, so I'm over and out.  Comments on the direction of my journal would be much appreciated.  I just feel like such a crashing bore, I guess that's what I'm getting at.

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[info]new_world_smurf wrote:
Oct. 12th, 2008 12:11 am (UTC)
Don't worry, I'm boring too. No thread at Center Field yet, I see.
[info]new_world_smurf wrote:
Oct. 12th, 2008 12:14 am (UTC)
Now there is. And yes, tell old stories, I do all the time.
[info]alphabetroutes wrote:
Oct. 12th, 2008 08:43 pm (UTC)
well, if work + baseball = boring than we are playing on the same (*yawn*) team. while i don't think that you are boring, i WOULD like to encourage you to share away! i am all about memoir and nostalgia and old journals and the like. i know how you feel though--i have some chronic health things that waylay me for weeks and months at a time and i feel hopelessly limited in my scope and things to talk about. i mean, i feel that way a lot anyway, but it becomes particularly pronounced when i haven't left the house in many moons.
[info]ecl1958 wrote:
Oct. 13th, 2008 03:56 am (UTC)
I can definitely relate to those feelings of being limited. I do work full time, but other than that and necessary errands, I pretty much am here at the house, which is so, SO different from the way things used to be. So...I'll be sure to bring on the nostalgic stories about those days, soon as I get a chance.
[info]horsecrazyliza wrote:
Oct. 13th, 2008 01:38 am (UTC)
I feel like I've been boring lately, too. It seems like everything in my life has collectively decided to all converge on this week and, as a result, I'm utterly exhausted. So I know how you feel and you're very forgiven.

And it would be cool to read about old stories--reminiscing (even if it's about, say, last week) is one of my favorite things to do.

I had a sort of (okay, not really) similar experience once. I was bored, so I searched my elementary school on LJ and I found a journal that belonged to a girl who was one of my best friends in fifth grade but I barely talk to any more. She had an entry that talked about me and another of our close circle-of-three friends (who I'm still really close to): "they dont even think to care about what other people think about them...and i love them for that. i feel like they are the only people that i can actually just be myself around. when we are together by ourselves i feel so full and happy...but when we are with other people...god for some reason they bug me to hell." It was really startling to read that.
[info]ecl1958 wrote:
Oct. 13th, 2008 04:00 am (UTC)
I have enough old stories to keep this journal busy for years, I think. I kept handwritten journals during college and grad school and for several years thereafter, and also have old photo albums to jog my memory. Just wait until I have time during the offseason!

Those are pretty awesome words from your old friend, I must say! Sounds like it was a happy kind of startled...
[info]horsecrazyliza wrote:
Oct. 13th, 2008 04:17 am (UTC)
That's awesome. I can't wait to read some of them.

I don't know... in some ways it was good startling, because it was nice to know she appreciated me, but the "they bug me to hell" was kind of random. She never let anything on to suggest that. And she's usually the type of person who will tell you anything, if it occurs to her to say it.
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